God is a Comedian (Part #1)

This may be my most favorite saying in the whole world at this point. There is so much going on in my life right now. I've been having to work super hard to keep up with everything. I just think that I need to schedule EVERYTHING to get it all done. My prior post was about that song on Ate Karen's website because it spoke to me so much about just being and not worrying about anything.

That same day I was worrying about things I can't control (duh, that's everyone) and as I was leaving my house I saw a rainbow and I got a text that answered all my questions. We've all had that conversation, "God if you want me to have this, you'll do this" conversation. I was totally testing Him. He delivered...coconuts...(that's my new saying...I'm gonna see how many people pick it up...lol) He basically said, "why don't you just trust me?" Then, I asked myself the same question...(deep)

So then, today was an even crazier day for me, work wise, and I was at Starbucks meeting with a client. I don't normally pay attention to the coins I get, but today I got my change and why did I get a flippin' Texas quarter? Seriously...this is all too random...(that one is actually really retarded but I had to share it...it made me laugh, that's why God's a comedian)

There are some things that are a coincidence...other things you can't really explain. There's a lot of things that I can't explain that have happened in the last week to me, business and personal, that I can't explain and all I know is that all of it is in God's hands.

Regardless of all the random occurrences in this last week, I am recognizing that this is all for a bigger purpose. The bigger purpose is that I have found my trust in God has strengthened so much in the last week. I had been praying for discernment for years (years and years) and I finally feel as if I can pray and know what God is really trying to communicate to me. I thought for a long time that I had been missing the message, but maybe I wasn't listening. Maybe that's a lot of people. All I know is that I am feeling loved and I'm telling you...there's nothing like feeling totally loved by God. It's a good place to be.

The Power of Now

This blog is inspired by my cousin Karen's choice of music....she already knows...

It's been weeks since I've blogged. I'm having a moment so I figure I will share it before it disappears. So for those who have been following my blog, I had a friend come down for Valentine's Day weekend. It was an awesome weekend. We had a lot of fun just hanging out and getting to know each other all over again. We went to Santa Cruz and hung out in Half Moon Bay. Then, he had to leave...so sad...

Anyways, I've been doing my whole control thing (because I lie to myself and say that I control things when God controls it all), and I was looking at some pics on Ate Karen's website today and was listening to the song she had on her site. It's called "The Power of Now". I started listening to the lyrics and there is one part of the song that stuck in my mind:

Be willing to let go of everything you think you need to know
Be strong enough to let go of everything you think you need to control
For everything goes away

I was freaking out! God is hilarious! He knew I needed a reminder. For example, if you truly let go of everything you need to know (like what's gonna happen in the next few months, am I going to get this money/raise/deal, does he like me more than I like him), you stop worrying and start enjoying your life now. AND...if you are strong enough to let go of control, you stop worrying about a lot of stuff and are so present to now that the stuff you were worrying about (which you can't control anyways) doesn't even really matter anymore. Deep...

I am taking it to heart and you know what is so awesome about all these lessons that I am learning in this whole process? I am learning that no matter what happens, I am always in God's hands...and I trust him with EVERYTHING.

No pics to share...was too freaked out...LOL...maybe after next weekend...