This has been the most confusing week I've had since I was a teenager...and believe me, I was confused then too. So many things have happened in this last week that I can't even begin to tell you what I am thinking right now.
First, last Saturday, Dennis and I broke up and that must've been the saddest thing. I brought it up and we both decided that we weren't that happy in this relationship. As of today, I have not talked to him about it. I see him because of Primerica stuff, but lately he's been a little flaky.
And I am also feeling a little vulnerable because I have no attachment to anyone. I am not really looking for a boyfriend right now as I am focusing on myself. I was at church today and Pastor was talking about not dating someone who is not Christian because it will cause stress on the relationship. How odd that he preached that today.
On top of that, this is the hardest weekend to book appointments, so my appointment book was scarce with a few appointments here and there. I am on track to winning the Bahamas trip, but need a couple few thousand points to secure it. I am freaking out quite a bit and almost went through this depression because I worked so hard to get here and I want to go on this company trip. I gotta fight to the end! I gotta go to Bahamas!
Anyways, I'm going to get off my soapbox now. I gotta stay focused on the end goal! No more mental breaks or distractions...
Sunday, November 30, 2008
Sunday, November 16, 2008
Only 6 inches a year
I've been having issues with my hair the last couple days. I was looking at these pictures where my hair was long and I am finding that I want to grow my hair now. However, I was doing research and apparently our hair only grows about 6 inches a year on average. That's only about 1/2 an inch a month. Which means if I wanted the long hair that I had before, I have to wait at least 6 months to a year to get it even close to being able to reach my mid-back. Oh well, I gotta get over it or I will be obsessed with finding out how to grow my hair faster.
I was also looking at my pictures traveling around the world and I was a skinny little thing (and I thought I was super fat, weighing about a buck and 5 pounds). I am planning on doing the cleanse again after Thanksgiving. This time though, I believe I will be switching from lemons to limes every other day to have variety. I am excited. I have kept the weight off from the first cleanse I did and haven't eaten red meat since August. Crazy how I don't even really miss it too much. It wasn't a huge part of my diet before the cleanse anyways. I am hoping that my love for starchy foods goes away because that is my biggest vice. I love potatoes.
I should stop worrying so much about how I look. I should really focus on just being happy with being me.
I was also looking at my pictures traveling around the world and I was a skinny little thing (and I thought I was super fat, weighing about a buck and 5 pounds). I am planning on doing the cleanse again after Thanksgiving. This time though, I believe I will be switching from lemons to limes every other day to have variety. I am excited. I have kept the weight off from the first cleanse I did and haven't eaten red meat since August. Crazy how I don't even really miss it too much. It wasn't a huge part of my diet before the cleanse anyways. I am hoping that my love for starchy foods goes away because that is my biggest vice. I love potatoes.
I should stop worrying so much about how I look. I should really focus on just being happy with being me.
Sunday, November 9, 2008
Happy Birthday
We went to my dad's grave today and he would've been 74 years old if he was alive. Crazy huh? Today is his actual birthday and we usually visit his grave on Veteran's Day, so we decided to make a day of it. Jay's fam bam, me and Dennis all caravaned there in the Previa.
It kills me every time we go there with the Jay's kids because I wish so bad that my dad was there to see them. It takes everything out of me not to cry for my brother (and myself when I have kids). The crazy thing is that it has been a really long time since we've been there all together. I usually go by myself if I'm having a moment. But today, my brother said "Sorry, I know it's been awhile, but our family is growing and we wanted you to see them. So here they are." Man...that was tough.
And on that note, I am totally proud of my brother, Jay. He's turning 27 in a couple of weeks and has accomplished so much for his age, even with a family. Lately, he's been really impressing me with his ideas and vision for himself. The more I talk to him, the more I see his world view change and I can only look on like a proud sister of the kind of man my brother has become. I see great things for him and his future and am so excited for what's to come.
It's times like this where I miss my dad the most. I know that he's watching us, but what I would give to see him love on those kids. He would have been so happy.
As we were pulling away from the grave site, A.J. turned around and said "Bye Lolo. Happy Birthday!" I thought that was awesome. Happy Birthday Daddy.
It kills me every time we go there with the Jay's kids because I wish so bad that my dad was there to see them. It takes everything out of me not to cry for my brother (and myself when I have kids). The crazy thing is that it has been a really long time since we've been there all together. I usually go by myself if I'm having a moment. But today, my brother said "Sorry, I know it's been awhile, but our family is growing and we wanted you to see them. So here they are." Man...that was tough.
And on that note, I am totally proud of my brother, Jay. He's turning 27 in a couple of weeks and has accomplished so much for his age, even with a family. Lately, he's been really impressing me with his ideas and vision for himself. The more I talk to him, the more I see his world view change and I can only look on like a proud sister of the kind of man my brother has become. I see great things for him and his future and am so excited for what's to come.
It's times like this where I miss my dad the most. I know that he's watching us, but what I would give to see him love on those kids. He would have been so happy.
As we were pulling away from the grave site, A.J. turned around and said "Bye Lolo. Happy Birthday!" I thought that was awesome. Happy Birthday Daddy.
Tuesday, November 4, 2008
Praying for the man
"If you want to make God laugh, show him your plans."
So with that, I am watching the election results and we are living history right now. We have elected a Black President. Wow...I am at a loss for words. Maybe that's what God had planned. Who knows? All I know is that the whole world is looking at our country for change. Electing a black president here is allowing people from all over the world to believe that anything is possible if they put their mind to it. I believe that this election is bigger than the issues that they were debating. It was about giving people hope; not just in our country, but in the whole world.
Regardless, he has a lot of work that he needs to do and I just pray that God guides him for the sake of our country. That's all we can really do for our President. Pray for him.
So with that, I am watching the election results and we are living history right now. We have elected a Black President. Wow...I am at a loss for words. Maybe that's what God had planned. Who knows? All I know is that the whole world is looking at our country for change. Electing a black president here is allowing people from all over the world to believe that anything is possible if they put their mind to it. I believe that this election is bigger than the issues that they were debating. It was about giving people hope; not just in our country, but in the whole world.
Regardless, he has a lot of work that he needs to do and I just pray that God guides him for the sake of our country. That's all we can really do for our President. Pray for him.
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